update.

I cant believe that its september! Where did my entire summer go? Oh ya I was stuck booted.  2011 has cetrainly proven it self not one of my finest years haha.  Update on the foot situay... finally some evidence of healing but very little.  The doctor is going to see if insurance can get me a bone stimulator to help with the process but even then I could still require surgery.  This is testing my patience and trust... sometimes I feel like I'll never have my life back.  It is so easy to get discouraged but I need to keep believing.  I am a firm believer that all things happen for a reason and that everything is already predistined.  In my world I believe God has everything already planned out this is just my life unfolding.  Although the situation is not my top choice in trials I must endure it is a lot better than most people.  I just heard a story of a 20 year old out in cali who slipped and fell... knocked his head... has been in a 6 month coma and now has woken only to find himself paralyzed. Wow.  Wake up call my broken bone as annnoying as it is and depressing that things can be so much worse.

I think its important to take a look at this situation and look at the big picture.  Yes, this has been one of the most enduring depressive things for me since I have felt my identity has been essentially stripped.  Dancing was so much of who I have been since I was 7 years old and I hope continues to be a part of my life in years to come.  However, being off now 3 months... going on a 4th possibly into more has made me discover so much about me... I have so much more to give in life than being caught in the drama of dance friends, class, auditions, rejections... I am so much more than a striving artist trying to make some sort of impression on people.  I have other dreams.  Dreams of reporting on red carpets, being submerged in pop culture and the music industry but I am more than just dreams. I hope if anyone comes to read this that they realize this too... they are more than their career or passion.  Yes, those are beautiful things and things that are apart of who we are but don't lose yourself so much that you forget you are worth so much more.