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faith... confidence and trust.  I used to think I had so much faith... my faith was strong but when I looked at the definition of faith... I realize that maybe I don't have so much.  Faith is having confidence and trust that whatever you believe is going to be your backbone to get ya through... but it comes down to two words... confidence and trust.  I recently had a dream that I had a baby...  I didn't know the baby daddy and never recalled being pregnant or having sex and I wanted to give it up for adoption.  I woke up disturbed and full of anxiety, it was so real.  I can't imagine what teen moms have to go through... WOW more credit to them.  Instead of fluffing off the dream, I of course researched what it meant.  I found this on yahoo answers, probably not the most credible HA!


 it is the privileges of women to have pregnancy dream. It symbolizes heavy responsibilities. 

You may be feeling doubtful about things you are to do in reality. You may be having some sort of challenges or task to do. However, you may feel not courageous enough to accept. Projecting deciding to give it up for adoption may reflect the feeling of low self confidence.

You are feeling uncertain, conflict and struggle about certain task in life. Dreaming of pregnancy is a vent out of your feeling of how things are to be handled. Basically, you feel tough in making certain decision, and they are all related to task and responsibilities you may be facing recently and you vent it all out in this dream


wow.. low self confidence and not courageous enough to accept. Accept what? Accept the challenges of my foot saga?  Maybe I don't have the faith... trust and confidence that the situation is really going to be ok and I will be fully healed.  Ever feel that way? You know it's going to be okay deep down but then a part of you just wants to hold onto what if?  It's like when you've had your heartbroken... you want to move on quickly but a part of you wants to hold onto that person.  You want to get on with your life but for some reason you keep burying your face in the pillows and tears trying to hold on. You don't really have faith... trust and confidence that someone else will come around. You want to have faith so badly but something inside of you revolts to the worse case of never finding someone or a situation never ending.  I looked at my last blog and saw... I'm healing... but I'm nervous...  maybe I should have gotten surgery.  Surgery doesn't always fix things and knowing my track record it probably wouldn't have helped in this time frame.  I truly believe this broken bone served a HUGE purpose... I see glimpses of it now but I believe in the future I'll see more. So for now here's to solid firm faith... trust and confidence  that the next post regarding my recovery will prove my Faith has o.v.e.r.c.o.m.e