2012... and I am healing still! I am not sure what to think of my last xray... the bone shows healing in two spots and there is a gap.  My doctor has said that is all its going to heal and basically Ishould go back to life and dancing.  I am excited yet nervous.  A gap in my bone for dancing? My doctor said that people have been fine with this type of healing... I am just nervous.  I am not sure if this is happening because I have dubbed 2012 with one theme for my life: fearless.  Here I am at the start having a small fear... after some mixed emotions and tears  that were both happy/nervous tears I pulled myself back together.  This is the year of being fearless... to overcome my fears... and this gap fear will not win.  It is remarkable that I have even started to heal back in November and continue to heal a little more two months later.  I believe that before I move back to NYC I will have more healing that gap will be completely gone if not just a small sliver.  Part of me wonders if I should have just went through with the surgery... and now I am just confused because really it was suppose to be completely healed by now but its not... it is but with scar tissue but we aren't for certain until I start getting back to activities.  So my plan remains as this... get back to pilates... biking... walking.... start ballet barre once my leg is strong enough for single releves and go from there.... being honest I am nervous I'll re-break something and have to go back for a surgery that I could have had MONTHS ago... but on the other hand I gotta trust this is the path God wanted for my life.  For whatever reason I am suppose to be back in the midwest for a year and still not fully healed or healed the correct way lol  Time will only tell but until then I smack the gap in the face believing I will dance again with a gap thats rock solid tissue or bone.