dragonflies and post op sandals

Today I lose my darth vedar boot! I have mixed feelings with all of this because its a step to progression yet on the horizon I still could need surgery and then BAM back to the boot and crutches.  It's a huge cloud of uncertainty.  I just want the surgery already if it means this is all over and done with.  I would hate to start healing and then months later realize I need surgery.  A girl I know just broke a bone in her foot in January and JUST now had surgery... she got out of the boot and everything.  EEKS. I really don't want that to happen to me so if I need surgery now SO BE IT.  hmpf.  For now all I can do is trust  that whatever is in store for my future that it has been already planned.  God knows exactly what's happening... I just wish I could fast forward to 20 days from now to that very xray.  Time will only tell but in the midst of waiting let me not wish away these days but embrace them.

Moving from....

To this...

Not the most flattering but a step in the RIGHT direction.... not to jump subjects but the other day I was outside and a dragonfly came and landed right on my boot! Sat there for a good few minutes and then flew around me while I was swimming. I thought it was strange so I decided to look up the symbols of the dragonfly and here's what I found on this website Dragonfly  

• Maturity and a Depth of character
  The dragonfly, in almost every part of the world symbolizes change and change in the perspective of self realization; and the kind of change that has its source in mental and emotional maturity and the understanding of the deeper meaning of life.
  
  The traditional association of Dragonflies with water also gives rise to this meaning to this amazing insect. The Dragonfly’s scurrying flight across water represents an act of going beyond what’s on the surface and looking into the deeper implications and aspects of life.

• Power and Poise
  The dragonfly’s agile flight and its ability to move in all six directions exude a sense of power and poise - something that comes only with age and maturity.
  The dragonfly can move at an amazing 45 miles an hour,  hover like a helicopter fly backwards like a hummingbird, fly straight up, down and on either side. What is mind blowing is the fact that it can do this while flapping its wings a mere 30 times a minute while mosquitoes and houseflies need to flap their wings 600 and 1000 times a minute respectively.
  
  The awe inspiring aspect is how the dragonfly accomplishes its objectives with utmost simplicity, effectiveness and well, if you look at proportions, with 20 times as much power in each of its wing strokes when compared to the other insects.  The best part is that the dragonfly does it with elegance and grace that can be compared to a veteran ballet dancer. If this is not a brazen, lazy, overkill in terms of display of raw power, what is?

• Defeat of Self Created Illusions
  The dragonfly exhibits iridescence both on its wings as well as on its body. Iridescence is the property of an object to show itself in different colors depending on the angle and polarization of light falling on it.
  
  This property is seen and believed as the end of one’s self created illusions and a clear vision into the realities of life. The magical property of iridescence is also associated with the discovery of one’s own abilities by unmasking the real self and removing the doubts one casts on his/her own sense of identity. This again indirectly means self discovery and removal of inhibitions.

• Focus on living ‘IN’ the moment
  The dragonfly normally lives most of its life as a nymph or an immature. It flies only for a fraction of its life and usually not more than a few months. This adult dragonfly does it all in these few months and leaves nothing to be desired. This style of life symbolizes and exemplifies the virtue of living IN the moment and living life to the fullest. By living in the moment you are aware of who you are, where you are, what you are doing, what you want, what you don’t and make informed choices on a moment-to-moment basis.
  
  This ability lets you live your life without regrets like the great dragonfly.

• The opening of one’s eyes
  The eyes of the dragonfly are one of the most amazing and awe inspiring sights. Given almost 80% of the insect’s brain power is dedicated to its sight and the fact that it can see in all 360 degrees around it, it symbolizes the uninhibited vision of the mind and the ability to see beyond the limitations of the human self. It also in a manner of speaking symbolizes a man/woman’s rising from materialism to be able to see beyond the mundane into the vastness that is really our Universe, and our own minds.

Sounds like the perfect symbol for me right now with regards to my busted foot... cheers to dragonflies!