believing.

Well, its October... yep. It's been 5 months since I have been broken... My heart longs to just be able to jump or skip.  Who knew I would be so excited to just skip? The past 5 months have certainly proven to be filled with ups and downs.  This month I have scheduled my surgery for 11/22.  My heart is extremely anxious.   I know I said I didn't care about hardware in my foot but it's kinda a big deal. I'll be put to sleep, sliced, and sewn up with a plate and screw only to start a 3 month recovery meaning february should be the end of this.  A total of 9 months... um, WHAT! This is crazy people recover from ACL surgeries quicker.

Anyways, wanna hear something creepy about 11/22? First its the day JFK was assassinated... but here is the real creepy-ness... so I have been praying and asking God for His timing on my foot healing... my doctor wanted me to wait another 6 weeks which actually meant 7... I'd see him on Nov 10th  since he is so busy but I really didn't want to wait that long.  I rather just have the surgery... I put a call into him and waited to hear back...  I mean come on I saw him Sept 29th and he wanted me to wait until Nov 10th!? Sheesh... Anyways, I had a dream prior to getting in contact with my doctor and in it I was in hospital with a random group of people trying to schedule my surgery and on a notepad they had me down for 11/22.  I woke up, I thought that is INSANE I am not waiting til 11/22.... no way that's too far. I finally got in touch with my doctor and since he is so busy the soonest they can take me is 11/22! Um, WHAT? I nearly dropped the phone.  I am still going to see him on Nov 10th and then we will do pre op discussion.  Now call me crazy but in my heart and soul I believe that something good is going to happen at this next appointment. There is power in prayer and boy, have I ever been praying.  Surgery isn't the worse thing that could happen though so I am fully prepared for it.  I know sometimes God doesn't answers our prayers... sometimes the answers are not what we want to hear so we can learn something... not sometimes but always.  No matter the situation there is always a lesson to learn... a silver lining with every cloud we just don't see it right away and sometimes the answers we think aren't the right answers end up pushing our lives and perspectives in the right direction.  Still believing I am not gonna need that scalpel but if I do I am fully embracing that it's God's plan for my life even with it on the OR board =)  The next post will say "NO SURGERY... HEALING." 

*believing*