addiction and blue nail polish

This morning I woke up to find glum ho hum weather out the window. It is true that the weather effects our moods. I always like the glum ho hum weather in the fall... not sure if I will be liking it come this fall in a boot with nuts n bolts.

So I also woke up this morning to walking with my boot and feeling exactly where the break in my foot is. It just feels like a bubble on my foot no real pain but its definitely still broken. Is it possible to go on without surgery and it still being broken? Ya, wishful thinking. I just hope its surgery or a definite no. I don't want an in between answer or go on without surgery to later come back to it.  So, if you pray I would appreciate any you could spare in the direction of my darth vedar boot.  Today, I am going to paint my nails blue and it makes me miss my friend Liz. We were on a hunt for grey nail polish (well she was) and I was on the hunt for those sticker nails.... which I did get. ZEBRA. If anyone knows me they know I am into the rockstar nails... well the rockstar lifestyle minus the stereotype of drugs that is typically associated with it.

Not to side track... but speaking of rockstars and their association with addiction... the disease of addiction is just as real as my broken foot. Just an FYI to all who have been making rude comments on the recent death of Amy Winehouse.  Please read my awesome friend Neil Davis (check out his blog and music... brilliant) In My Mind his blog inspired my rant... She truly was talented and addiction played a huge role in her life and sometimes the demons become bigger than we are. It's hard to fight. I get it. I get wanting to drown out your pain in another form... I know because I have... we all have. Maybe we aren't popping pills, drowning in alchy, creating scars on our wrists... but in other things we all do it. Maybe in order to hide pain you focus on tearing others down since you are so unhappy with yourself... maybe you engulf yourself in an artform... maybe your the bubbly person who acts like everyones BFF but in your own circles throw daggers at other people to mask the insecurity you just can't face. I don't know what you do or maybe you don't do anything. I just become angry at hearing how people who attack celebs or even friends on their struggles and won't face their own. It's pretty annoying hearing... oh that could have been prevented and yadda yadda... NO KIDDING but it happened. So instead of focusing on the mess or why... why not actually celebrate the years we were all able to witness.  No one's struggles are more easy or hard then yours... so stop and think about that next time you go off in your circle to take a cheap shot at someone to cover your own mask.

Sorry about the soap box paragraph above... but don't you get agitated when people act like morons? They think they are above everything and don't experience problems? I am guilty of it too. My nails are a pretty teal blue... blue means calm... tranquil... maybe I should have fixated my attention to the color before I wrote the post above ha! If you haven't caught on I am pretty out of sorts when I write...  the season of fall to broken foot to blue nail polish to rockstar addictions to speaking of morons.... ya, I'd say I'm pretty disheveled (hence the title) Anyways, I want to leave you with this pretty stellar mashup in memory of Amy Winehouse with Linda Ronstadt... Amy you truly will be missed and with your death I pray that change will come in all of our hearts... facing our own addictions.  Do you hear the chords on that woman? Just gives me goosebumps allllll over.